Archive - Lainie’s Newsletter

Disciple of my longing.

I don’t suffer from chronic anxiety or depression. I suffer from chronic longing. I don’t even know what or who I’m longing for. I just know that…

Mar 19 •

My Intensities.

I feel like I’m the most confident person in the world, and yet I don’t know anyone filled with as much self-doubt as I have. I relate so deeply with…

Mar 4 •

September 2022

Not a boss, not a damsel.

Meditations on the modern woman.

Sep 10, 2022 •

August 2022

To no one in particular...

I refuse to suppress my damn emotions. If I like you, love you, admire you — you're gonna hear it even if I know there’s a possibility it might scare…

Aug 17, 2022 •

March 2022

“The quieter you become, the more you can hear.”

“The quieter you become, the more you can hear.” - Ram Dass In 17 years of competitive athletics and schooling, not a single coach or teacher ever…

Mar 7, 2022 •

January 2022

Dead Reckoning / Loving Armed

I’m not a nihilist but nihilism brought me face-to-face with a dark place that until that point, I had refused to accept was inside of me and…

Jan 26, 2022 •

Jan 1, 2022 •

November 2021

Nov 14, 2021 •

August 2021

Solitude, the genuine kind.

It’s winter 2017. I’m alone in the coastal mountain range of Central Oregon. And the view is from my then bedroom: the backseat of a Honda Fit. The…

Aug 6, 2021 •

Obsessed with the body and becoming free.

Aug 6, 2021 •

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